It’s official: I’m burned out.

It’s official: I’m burned out.

I’m hoping I’m just cranky, because most of the time I love my job. Lately I’ve gone through my days angry. Angry at people that can’t be bothered to help themselves (though they are rare), angry at the million tiny intractable problems, very angry about my extremely sub-standard salary. The latter will be remedied soon, or I’ll be hunting. I have my interview suit ready.

More and more I’m thinking about developing freelance clients. The thought terrifies me in a way–it is the ultimate test of my ability to sell myself. I hate selling anything, much less myself. At the moment, the pros outweigh the cons. I need more choice in my life. I want the power to say yes, no, fuck you very much. Most of all, I just want to design web pages. I’m tired of teaching people that don’t learn. I’m tired of supporting applications that defy usability.

A week ago, I planned to retire at this place. I think it’s over. I think I’m cutting the strings.

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